i've been meaning to post for a while.

but lately i haven't had anything positive to say about school in general.  but i write this blogs a thousand times over in my head;; and everything that happens at school or related to school i consider blogging; but refrain, for no reason in particular.

where to start?

i did my first ever self-portrait in drawing II with amy sands and was complacent with it.  i'd never in my 19 years alive attempted to render a human face, let alone my own.  it's a complex detailed image that i've always been intimidated by, but request assignment as per foundation students; i had no choice.  i would post it on here, but i don't particularly want to embarrass myself.  if you reeeeally want to see it, check out the FND show in march, april or may i can't remember when, which is bizarre.  i used to be able to recall exact dates and times of things without much thought, but i have so much on my mind that sometimes i struggle to remember even how old i am.

a conversation i had with a classmate last week went a little something like this.

girl:     do you want to go bowling tonight?

&:        i would but i have to work and finish my drawing, write my paper, study art history, good start on my paper for honors assignment, and spend $200+ for supplies. and i promised logdog i'd hang out with him for a bit tonight.

girl:      wait.  you have two jobs.  your on the honor roll. AND you have a boyfriend?! how do you do it?

&:       i.  don't. know.


but really.  i don't know how i do it.